I hope yall can follow me on this with out feeling a certain way about me. lol. I’m not saying any of this applies to me but I now understand why young people in the “industry” have egos. They follow their dreams and through out their youth all they hear is; “You’re too young” “You’re not good enough” etc etc. I have even heard from people myself, that I’ll never be respected in my craft until I’m older, and not to mention most of the people in my profession are males in their late twenties and beyond. We get to a point where the only person that believes in us, is ourselves. We have to big ourselves up, and tell ourselves over and over that we’re great and that other people will eventually see it. We let our skin harden to the cruel criticisms of our “peers”. It’s almost like we have to have an ego to survive in this world, because if we don’t believe in ourselves, WHO WILL?
Now, I am not saying in anyway that I have an ego, don’t mistake my confidence for arrogance, cause I look at it like this, if someone is allowed to tear me down,( and there is a difference between creative criticism, and just wanting to tear someone down. I’ve been exposed to both.) Then I am allowed to build myself back up. I’m not out here saying that I’m the best at what I do, but I know for a fact I’m not the worse and I know exactly who my competition is, just as I know my competition knows who I am. I have to believe in myself. I have to believe that I can achieve whatever I set out to achieve, because if I don’t WHO WILL? I meditate daily on becoming the best in the world at what I do, I’m constantly reading, and brainstorming because I know that I have to work twice as hard because I’m young. I know that every flaw will be magnified and blamed on my youth, and maybe it is because of my youth. Or then again maybe not.
Every now and then I do have to humble myself with the constant reminder that my time will come, and it will. I just have to keep at it. The fact that I’m young and being compared to people twice my age is a success in my book, even if they’re better than me now. Imagine when I get to their age. I just might be better than them. Or at least that’s what I tell myself. Whatever helps me sleep at night I guess. lol.
I hope no one gets offended by this, but if so, maybe you’re guilty of something subconsciously.