My 200th Post

I started my blog July 20th 2012, and I am now at my 200th post. I don’t know if that’s a good or bad thing. Lol. Anyways, I honestly just started this blog to give myself a time capsule that I could always come back to. I never really expected people to read and or care about any of the things that I have posted and will post in the future. It’s really all for my future self.

With that being said. I would like to dedicate this 200th post to my mother who, I miss so much, and lost at the young age of 17, which was also the beginning of my senior year of high school. I could shed a tear everyday for the rest of my life for her, cause I feel like it’s a hole in me that will never be filled, or a wound that will never heal. I just have to find new and better ways to cope with it. I miss her even more when something bad happens because I’ve always been a baby, (I’m the youngest of five kids) I always find myself saying “This would have never happened if my mom were here.” or “I would not be going through this is my mom were here” and it is always those thoughts that make me cry my eyes out :(. Sometimes I really need to just talk about her, but I know how people don’t always like to discuss death or do not want their vibe ruined by the mention of something so saddening so I just keep it to myself, which may not be that much of a good thing to do either I just miss her so much mannnn

love you mom.

But on much happier accord, thank you to anyone who has ever clicked on a link, or typed Breonajai.com, or breonajai.wordpress.com into their web browser to read anything that I have posted. I appreciate you all so much and may the 300th post come before we all know it. Stay tuned.

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2 thoughts on “My 200th Post

  1. Believe me, having reached 200 posts is NOT a bad thing. Lol, at all. I’m looking forward to reading more of your writing.

    Btw, I’m sorry about your mother. I feel the same way when I think about an aunty of mine that passed. I can never not think of her and get teary-eyed, I miss her sooo much. A lot of the time when I’m feeling lost and alone I really be needing to talk to her. I say the same thing you do, “I would never be going through this if my aunt were here…” She’s one of the MAIN reasons why I stay motivated, everything that I do is done to make her proud.

    Anywho, I’m sure your mother is watching over you smiling and that she’s proud of the self-driven and ambitious young lady that you are! ❤

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