I cant remember my last Random Thoughts post, but I know I haven’t posted one at all this month… I’ll let you know when I decide if that’s a good thing or a bad thing. Moving on..
I don’t even know how to word this so bare with me as I attempt to piece together the randomness that it is my thoughts.
I think I made a mistake by becoming friends with the people that I do business with…
Like… I see people (men) joke about being friend zoned by females that they would like to be more than friends with… I think that same attitude can be applied towards the people you do business with.
I’ve been feeling like this emptiness. Like I can look into someone’s eyes and see that they are no longer interested in working with me and the shit is so discouraging, so draining, and so negative that I should not even be lingering on it for too much longer being that I am a firm believer in the law of attraction, and the universe (also known as the secret)
I just have to cut my losses and move on.. if you hang on to an infected limb for too long the infection eventually finds it way to your heart.
But back to being friendzoned in business. lol.
I think the universe is testing me… cause I always say I’ll give up friendship for the pursuit of my dreams/business, and I have proven this time and time again. I have maybe one or two friends right now. Strong maybe. lol. I think the test is will I give up business for friends.
immaturely right now my answer is no. It shouldn’t be.. but it is. Sorry. Maybe I’ll learn some life long lesson later on down the line that makes me change my mind about. But right now no. Matter of fact. I’m damn near at the point where if we can’t do business, we can’t be friends. Fuck it. (excuse my language)
Idk.. maybe it’s the Cancer in me (as in zodiac, not illness) we’re extremely emo, we can be loners at time, we can be rude without trying etc etc, but we also are goal oriented and do what we have to do to get where we want to get.. even making choices that other people would deem as hard… hmm… maybe that’s why they call us selfish.. *shrugs* maybe that’s another lesson for me to learn later on in life.