Random Thoughts – With Age Comes Wisdom…

Happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me, happy birthday to meeee

They really should say “With pain comes wisdom.” But I guess the first quote is a little more appealing. Today I turn 22,  and the only thing I plan to get out of this day is this post in which I am currently creating. A time capsule for me to come back and read on every birthday from here on out or when I randomly feel like reminiscing.

Safe to say I have learned a lot, not nearly as much as I will have learned in three to five years from now, but a decent amount of information for someone my age, including but not limited to the following;

The Law of Attraction is real.

Speak into existence the life you want to live and beware of the power of the tongue. Always be happy and smile even when you don’t feel like smiling, (insert every other positive quote about being positive) yea, all that.. Go watch the youtube video lol.


Keep your enemies close, but your friends the closest.

Treat a snake like what it is, a snake. Never let them get too close to the point where they can harm you. You may not be able to do away with them completely, but at least you do not have to be on edge around them.  Trust your instincts when it comes to the vibes of certain people, because despite what others may say there are some people that you just aren’t meant to mesh well with. I guess that’s life. Cherish your friends, acknowledge the snakes.


I don’t wanna end this abruptly, but I also don’t wanna get too long winded. I hate saying cliche ish like “Be happy with what you have” and “be thankful that you are seeing another birthday” but I will say one cliche. Smile and live. Hell, be angry with a smile at least it’ll throw the person you’re mad at off a little. Lol. Make sure that you are always happy with who you are as a person, cause at the end of the day, the person that has to sleep with you is YOU.


oh and also never feel bad for not liking someone, you instincts haven’t led you down the wrong path yet so just continue to trust them. 😉 Love.




Random Thoughts: I Am Going To Show the World

The only type of people that have successful directing careers are white males.

I honestly started to make that the title of this post but decided against it midway through. lol. Anyways…


Sometimes I forget how much of a headache this “dream” I signed up to pursue really is. Like this Bs is going to be an uphill battle all of the way and yea I knew that when I started but I guess I never really understood just how much of an uphill battle that it really WOULD be and how easy it is to end up right back at square one.


I am going to show the world.

I’m really at this point in my life where I honestly believe with all of my heart that no one except for myself has real faith in me, but luckily for me I was raised on two things; “Fuck The World” and “Success is the best revenge.” Now, I would be lying if I said that feeling alone sometime did not mess with me, cause it does. I can’t even describe just how wack I feel sometimes, it’s this empty feeling I get in the pit of my stomach and a migraine from overthinking things as much as I do on top of a bunch of other things.

But this is also why I applaud my arrogance.

I think I said something similar in an older post, something like “You get tore down so much that you realize if you don’t build yourself back up no one will.” If so, that just might’ve been the realest shit I ever wrote.

Thanks for not believing. That’ll be the reason I win.

I am going to show the world

I am going to show the world

I am going to show the world

I am going to show the world





Stressed. This is The Part They Should Tell You

The journey to success separates the people that really want it from the people that just do it.

This is the part they should tell you about when You’re chasing your dreams. How you’ll feel stagnant, out of place and occasionally feel like a failure when things aren’t moving the way that they could be. In all honesty, since the new year started I’ve been back and forth in my feelings. I’ve been trying to acquire patience, but sometimes it feels like it’s a voice in the back of my head asking me just what it is I think I’m waiting on.

I believe in speaking things into existence. I meditate when I feel like there is nothing else I can do. But MAN ish just be wack. At one point I could measure my progress every month and see how close I was getting to where I wanted to be, cause every month I was a tad bit closer even if it was by an inch. Every month I actually DID something towards my dream. But I have not done anything towards my dream in six months. Maybe more, and for a person that’s use to doing something towards it all of the time that is a long time. I’m so stressed. I haven’t left my house since January 1st.

Playing phone tag with people that “believe” or so they say. Those open ended “Yea, I’ma call you right back.” and the “I’ma see what I can do.” Oh, and the being broke part is the absolute worst.

I guess the outcome that you want never comes the way that you want it to, or with whom you want it to. I recently watched The Secret and one of the quotes that stuck with me was

Only focus on the what and not the how.

Meaning that by focusing on the outcome, the path will reveal itself.  Out of everything in that documentary, that sticks with me the most and I don’t know why. But I think the line is really powerful.



I’ve Been Browsing – Five Webseries You Should Check Out

hqdefaultI don’t know where I’ve been for the past two years (if not longer..) but it seems that the DIY Tv Shows aka Webseries have become very popular on youtube lately, especially those from the black perspective. For the past four months or so I’ve been watching and researching to the point where I am more than certain I spend more time on Youtube than I do actually watching television, and one thing is for certain.. I REALLY miss SCRIPTED tv. But I compiled this list to encourage whoever is reading this to go on youtube and support indie filmmakers, it’s really good material on there.  Ok it’s some bad shh on there too, but what’s life without balance?

Do not confine yourself to this list either. By all means browse, maybe’s there’s one I missed or haven’t seen yet. Who knows. But here you go:

1. Awkward Black Girl

Issa Rae has to be the youtube queen of webseries, I really idolize her DIY mentality. She’s so creative and supportive of others. But Awkward Black Girl is a webseries about an awkward black girl, well, a normal everyday black girl if you ask me.

2. Hello Cupid

Hello Cupid was actually the first webseries I ever watched, and I watched the whole first season in one day, if I had to summarize it I’d label it “Catfish the scripted tv show” It’s interesting. At first I did not know what to expect from it but then it got really good.

3. Venus Vs. Mars

This is a UK webseries, so if UK accents don’t bother you (The male accents took some getting use to) this show is worth watching. It’s pretty much about this girl’s misadventures in the dating world. I love it.

4. Black and Single

This Show is hilarious and set in Atlanta and again takes on the dating scene this time from both a make and female’s perspective.

5. Lenox Avenue

I’m still out on how I really feel about Lenox Avenue, part of me feels like there is too much sex and not enough plot, but there’s so much drama and I see where they’re at least trying to go with it so I feel like there’s still hope.

there’s also Roomieloverfriends, That Guy, Yellow, The Complex, I mean the list goes on and on and on. But check those out! Let me know if I’m missing any. Lol.