When I was nineteen I was homeless. I couch surfed, slept in cars and there was even a week in which I lived with my pastor. Ultimately I ended up in a homeless shelter specifically designed for youth under the age of twenty that had rules more like a halfway house than anything else. Continue reading
“A dysfunctional family is any family with more than one person in it.” – Mary Karr
This may be the only post in which I discuss my family, and I know that when or if they read it they’ll probably say something to the extent of “Bre on some emotional, weird shit again” or “What is this girl crying about now?” But I don’t really call this crying or whining, just a small observation, I still love you all I swear. lol. Oh, and let’s never discuss this after like a week or so.
In the last few years I’ve always felt closer to my friends than I have my family, and it was only because I felt like I could talk to them about things that my family would probably laugh at or joke about when I wanted to be serious. I’m an extremely emotional person and sometimes I joke about my family and say that us Johnsons, (yes my real last name is Johnson) only know two emotions, that’s happy and angry. If we’re sad we don’t talk about it and it’s sad to say that as of lately, I be sad a lot. Now, I love my family, we’re bound together by blood so we have to deal with each other even when we don’t want to. It’s just that sometime when I think about it I feel wack.
My sister that I live with is the only person that goes out of her way for me in any form or fashion. She houses me and feeds me when she really does not have to. We have our differences from time to time but she is my biological sister, we came from the same mother and I’ll love her forever.
I’m not saying anyone has to do anything for me either, I’m not saying that at all. I don’t really need anymore help thanks to select friends etc. Like I said, it’s just a small observation that I’ve made about family. Like, are we only family because we are bound by blood and nothing else? I really wanna know what defines FAMILY. Does it only mean that we’re obligated to show up at each other’s funerals? Come to an open house? A baby shower? lol.
“I don’t care about whose DNA has recombined with whose. When everything goes to hell, the people who stand by you without flinching–they are your family.” ― Jim Butcher
The second quote is for the people who have come into my life and have become like family. You all are soo much appreciated. Thanks for answering the phone for me at 4am when I’m crying about something, for believing in this crazy dream of mine, supporting me and becoming like brothers and sisters to me I love you all so much, so so so much. May we all learn something from the period that we are in each other’s lives.
“Families are messy. Immortal families are eternally messy. Sometimes the best we can do is to remind each other that we’re related for better or for worse…and try to keep the maiming and killing to a minimum.” ― Rick Riordan
And to my actual family is the quote above, it has a little humor in it which we all love. lol. I love yall, never forget, and if you get nothing else out of this post I hope you get that. We’re forever tied to each other.
“You must remember, family is often born of blood, but it doesn’t depend on blood. Nor is it exclusive of friendship. Family members can be your best friends, you know. And best friends, whether or not they are related to you, can be your family.” – Trenton Lee Stewart