Random Thoughts – With Age Comes Wisdom…

Happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me, happy birthday to meeee

They really should say “With pain comes wisdom.” But I guess the first quote is a little more appealing. Today I turn 22,  and the only thing I plan to get out of this day is this post in which I am currently creating. A time capsule for me to come back and read on every birthday from here on out or when I randomly feel like reminiscing.

Safe to say I have learned a lot, not nearly as much as I will have learned in three to five years from now, but a decent amount of information for someone my age, including but not limited to the following;

The Law of Attraction is real.

Speak into existence the life you want to live and beware of the power of the tongue. Always be happy and smile even when you don’t feel like smiling, (insert every other positive quote about being positive) yea, all that.. Go watch the youtube video lol.


Keep your enemies close, but your friends the closest.

Treat a snake like what it is, a snake. Never let them get too close to the point where they can harm you. You may not be able to do away with them completely, but at least you do not have to be on edge around them.  Trust your instincts when it comes to the vibes of certain people, because despite what others may say there are some people that you just aren’t meant to mesh well with. I guess that’s life. Cherish your friends, acknowledge the snakes.


I don’t wanna end this abruptly, but I also don’t wanna get too long winded. I hate saying cliche ish like “Be happy with what you have” and “be thankful that you are seeing another birthday” but I will say one cliche. Smile and live. Hell, be angry with a smile at least it’ll throw the person you’re mad at off a little. Lol. Make sure that you are always happy with who you are as a person, cause at the end of the day, the person that has to sleep with you is YOU.


oh and also never feel bad for not liking someone, you instincts haven’t led you down the wrong path yet so just continue to trust them. 😉 Love.




Five Movies I wouldn’t mind seeing turned into a TV Show

(That is an extremely long title. lol)

1. The Best Man

We need more color on television that does not come in the form of Ratchett “Reality” TV and all of the drama in both movies would transition over onto television so well with the right writers. I think it would be The Game preBET, and fit right in with VH1’s Hit The Floor, plus it covers way more realms of entertainment than just a sport.

2. Brown Sugar

Yes, another black people in the industry movie. I actually love these types of movies. lol. I just always felt like it should be some music based tv shows and even more music based Movies, like where’s the “Fame” type movies for Hip Hop (Carmen doesn’t count.)

3. Big Mama’s house

The original man in a dress.

4. Love & Basketball

Professional Basketball Player that is a female, shed some light on what life in the WNBA is like, it would be good publicity…

5. Eve’s Bayou

Do y’all even remember this movie? OMG. I think I would be glued every week if this movie were turned into a TV Show… HBO would have to do it and it would have to have the entire original cast in it as well.


Honorable Mention – As Much as I love the Five Heartbeats I really unsure if a TV show for it would be done in the way that I wanted in to be. So.. yea.

Somebody send this list to Hollywood.


Random Thoughts: Love Yourself Girl or Nobody Will

Love yourself, girl, or nobody will. Oh, you a woman? I don’t know how you deal with all the pressure to look impressive and go out in heels I feel for you. Killing yourself to find a man that’ll kill for you – J. Cole

Ok.. First of all I don’t do “Inspirational” posts at all. I’ll leave that to all of the other blog sites. I just really wanted to post this as a reminder to myself and others.

I am not the ideal body type.

You’ll probably never see me walking down some runway, or in some high fashion magazine and believe me when I say I am more than ok with that. Lol. I was bullied in elementary and middle school for my size and the way I looked. I guess my hair wasn’t long enough, my stomach wasn’t flat enough or my smile wasn’t bright enough. I was also extremely awkward because I didn’t have enough self esteem to exude confidence, no matter how pretty my family told me that I was. I always felt like I needed an outsider’s validation. Why couldn’t a random person on the street come up to me and tell me how pretty I am? Why couldn’t I just feel happy with myself?

Safe to say I carried myself poorly up until my sophomore year of high school, where I made the best friends I have ever had in my life. I started hanging with people that looked like me and we would compliment and uplift each other and just have fun. For the first time in my life I could go to school and not have to worry about what someone would have to say about me. I can barely remember how I got there but I think REAL LIFE started happening. So much chaotic stuff was happening at home that what other people said about me just stopped mattering. I even started responding to comments such as “Fat ass” and “Man you just weird as fuck” with “I know.” it’s kind of funny how when you agree with something someone says the remark doesn’t sting as much.

Love yourself girl or nobody will

I’ve heard

“I only date athletic built women”

“Yea big girls need love too but they gon get that love from someone that’s not me.”

“Why don’t you just lose weight?”

“You’d be so pretty if you were skinnier”

“If you wore make up you’d be cute as hell”

“I actually have a big girl fetish”

Don’t get me started on how I feel about that last quote. lol. But I’ve said all that to say THIS:

In REAL LIFE all that matters is how you feel when you look in the mirror at yourself. Not what some random male or female thinks you look. Body image use to be such a big deal to me but I forced myself to grow up. In life period it’s gonna be some people that find you unattractive. It’s even people in the world that think Beyonce isn’t cute, it’s just that when you’re a little bit darker and a little bit bigger the amount of people that think that about you may be a tad bit bigger but FUCK THEM. (excuse my language) Love yourself first, that’s when people that truly love you are allowed to… LOVE you. Stop giving the wrong crowd your attention.


Random Thoughts: Family Ties

“A dysfunctional family is any family with more than one person in it.”  – Mary Karr

This may be the only post in which I discuss my family, and I know that when or if they read it they’ll probably say something to the extent of “Bre on some emotional, weird shit again” or “What is this girl crying about now?” But I don’t really call this crying or whining, just a small observation, I still love you all I swear. lol. Oh, and let’s never discuss this after like a week or so.

In the last few years I’ve always felt closer to my friends than I have my family, and it was only because I felt like I could talk to them about things that my family would probably laugh at or joke about when I wanted to be serious. I’m an extremely emotional person and sometimes I joke about my family and say that us Johnsons, (yes my real last name is Johnson) only know two emotions, that’s happy and angry. If we’re sad we don’t talk about it and it’s sad to say that as of lately, I be sad a lot. Now, I love my family, we’re bound together by blood so we have to deal with each other even when we don’t want to. It’s just that sometime when I think about it I feel wack.

My sister that I live with is the only person that goes out of her way for me in any form or fashion. She houses me and feeds me when she really does not have to. We have our differences from time to time but she is my biological sister, we came from the same mother and I’ll love her forever.

I’m not saying anyone has to do anything for me either, I’m not saying that at all. I don’t really need anymore help thanks to select friends etc. Like I said, it’s just a small observation that I’ve made about family. Like, are we only family because we are bound by blood and nothing else? I really wanna know what defines FAMILY. Does it only mean that we’re obligated to show up at each other’s funerals? Come to an open house? A baby shower? lol.

“I don’t care about whose DNA has recombined with whose. When everything goes to hell, the people who stand by you without flinching–they are your family.” ― Jim Butcher

The second quote is for the people who have come into my life and have become like family. You all are soo much appreciated. Thanks for answering the phone for me at 4am when I’m crying about something, for believing in this crazy dream of mine, supporting me and becoming like brothers and sisters to me I love you all so much, so so so much. May we all learn something from the period that we are in each other’s lives.

“Families are messy. Immortal families are eternally messy. Sometimes the best we can do is to remind each other that we’re related for better or for worse…and try to keep the maiming and killing to a minimum.” ― Rick Riordan

And to my actual family is the quote above, it has a little humor in it which we all love. lol. I love yall, never forget, and if you get nothing else out of this post I hope you get that. We’re forever tied to each other.